Next up in the series, you have the pleasure of meeting my friend Tracie. We’ve known each other quite a few years from the days of pushing our little ones around in baby strollers, to now sharing the bittersweet moments of waving goodbye as our “babies” drive off to college. Tracie is proud mom to three amazing kiddos, and wife to Pastor Richard Boyd. She serves our school district as the Help Desk Technologist, and is one of the most giving ladies you’ll meet. From taxiing around our kiddos, giving me much needed reminders, and so much more I’m blessed to know Tracie… and I think you will be too as you read her honest, open words.
As I sat this morning, all alone, looking at the decorations in our house, drinking coffee, and remembering where each ornament came from I was flooded with love, and something else. I realized I have wasted alot of time. I have held grudges, judged others, not forgiven, and not shared the gospel like I should. My dad is in the hospital right now, and I just lost my grandma and a lady who was a spiritual mother to me, so my heart is kind of heavy. More than the heaviness of the loss of people, is the loss of time.
I didn’t speak to my dad for five years when I was a teenager, and I have always felt a little estranged from him, but last year when his dad passed away, things changed. He needed my help, and I freely gave it. We have had the best relationship in this last year because I let us. I let go of old hurts and pain and just loved him where he is. I let him love me in his way, not the way I want him to love me. I let go and let God.
My dad is not saved and I have tried to discuss it with him before, but he doesn’t see a need for a relationship with Christ. I have tried to live my life in front of him, and hope that it has been a witness, but as I sat there this morning I thought, “Has it been?” “Have I shown the love of Christ with my grudges and un-forgiveness and judgmental-ness?” “Would anyone want to know about Christ watching me?” The answer is no.
Time is short people! Even if you don’t believe in the end times, you can look around and see how fast time passes! My daughter is looking at colleges, my son is grown and gone, I will have another teenager in a month, time has passed me by! I have wasted something God has given me with “MY” hurts, that I really haven’t shared with the fixer of those hurts, Jesus.
Please don’t let the time continue to go by another day having “junk” that keeps you bogged down to the point that you can’t live for Christ as you should, or share the gospel like you should. Forgive people, love people, and tell people about Jesus. There is someone looking at your walk, whether it is your children, husband, friend or stranger.
Walk in a walk that they will know He is walking with you.